I have a mean voice talking in the back of my head. She intrudes when I make a mistake or when I drop something to tell me: “Quelle idiote!”
Yeah, my mean voice speaks French. Her favorite words mean: “What an idiot you are!” or “How stupid!” or “You’ll never get it right!”. Sometimes, I even find myself whispering those words aloud like an old lady telling off her cat. Except I would never talk like this to a cat, to a child or to a person. This special treatment is reserved for myself.
The voice is also pretty bossy: “I shouldn’t have said that”; “I should have gone for a run today”; “I shouldn’t eat so much.” She doesn’t whisper constructive ideas on how to improve myself in my ear; it’s just a constant flow of negativity.
I am not always able to stop it. At least now I catch myself doing it and think: “How mean you are to yourself”. Hum, it’s probably still the mean voice talking here.
I guess that being conscious of what’s happening is the first step. Then, when I hear something mean from the voice, I take distance from it. I wouldn’t listen to a mean and negative person in real life so there is no reason I should listen to the voice. I sure hear it but I just don’t listen anymore.
The next step is to replace the mean voice with a friendly one. “You’re doing great!”, “You look pretty” or “How smart!”… Here are the words I want my friendly voice to whisper.